thinking

In lieu of blogging, I've been thinking. There has been a lot to think about in the past month of blog silence. I can't even explain all I've been thinking about, nor would I if I could.

Some things aren't for the internet. They are for my thoughts alone, or prayers to God, or quiet conversations with those who know me best and love me anyway. They aren't meant for 2 sentence comments. They are meant for emotional response.

Some things hurt to much to be put where they can be used as ammunition.

Some things mean to much, are too precious, are too special, to be shared with the world at large.

Some things are too shameful to want read by people who won't understand...or to be heard by anyone at all, sometimes.

Some things are too judgmental to feel fair...they are safer inside.

Some things can't be expressed in words...they are too abstract or complex for the keyboard to handle.

These things I've been thinking take too much time. That's why I've been absent. But I'll be back. With thoughts that can be blogged, expressed, shared and commented upon.